I still have all this energy. How do I still have so much restlessness when I’ve barely slept in two weeks? It’s insane.
And there’s only so much I can do at 10 pm. I’ve organized and re-organized my room, hung pictures and sentimentals on my walls… went through all my books, thought about reading one, and then quickly dismissed that idea. I don’t think I can sit still for that long. Games are getting boring. Movies are getting boring. Anime is getting boring.
The only thing I’ve found calmness in is eating, playing guitar, and writing. And trying to contact all of the people that I’ve alienated over the years… just out of desperation to talk to –anyone-. Anyone at all….
Talk to me.
Relate to me in some way.
I need it.